Wednesday, June 23, 2010

A Deeper Level

Hmmm, where do I even start??
Well, this past weekend I took a trip with my BF. We both had been needing a vacation for so long, for me, I haven't had a REAL vacation in years! So we decided to visit Redding, CA. and meet up with some friends we hadn't met in person yet. Haha! I know! You're thinking, are you insane!?! But these particular friends I have known and been apart of their lives for about 2 years or so.
Anyway, let me move on. For you to fully understand what my trip was like, I have to explain to you what happened in my heart.

I personally, don't think I've ever, yes EVER, met SO many amazing people in one short span of time! And I say amazing, but TRULY, these people stirred something in me! To give you an analogy that would adequately describe, it would be like someone lighting a trail of gas that went straight to a crate of fireworks!

During the time that I had with them, conversations that I had, it seemed to me that what God was trying to tell me was He wants to take me to a deeper level! I had several conversations with different people where we talked about how certain things that we do, are not a sin, but sometimes those things will block the fullness of what God has for you. To hear this and the testimonies of the change they had when they let go of those things, it made me start to think about what in my life, did I have that was a block.
For some it was drinking, and although they didn't think it was wrong, they didn't hear God speak as clearly to them when they drank.

I feel like before I even left there, God revealed to me what it was for me. For me I put so much of myself into relationships, I mean so much that I wasn't realizing that some of those "relationships" were becoming unhealthy to me. I am such a people pleaser, I want to give love and create peace between people, but when I would try so hard to do that it would sometimes backfire at me.

So today, I've made a decision. It's time to let go. Not just to keep saying it, but to actually physically let go.
For me, I was feeling like that meant Facebook, it seemed like that was one of the sources. The other thing is being more bold, most of the time I let things go, let people say anything to me. But I feel like there can be a balance with love and peace and grace.

I want people to want to know me for me and not to keep up with what everyone is doing. I think Facebook can be a crutch for relationships and people stop talking in person and interacting in person.

So this is a new beginning for me, I've made the decision, with my heart and my mouth. I already feel a shift in the spiritual.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Oh Praise Him!

I was sitting here thinking about all of the things God is doing right now and I'm so overwhelmed!
There are times where I stay on the verge of tears, just because I am so thankful and SO in awe of the things the Lord is doing! WOW!

I'm at the point now that I so what more of the Lord that I've lost all fear, concern of what people think of me! I've had people looking at me strange, even call me crazy, but I just don't care anymore! When the Lord does something in mine or another person's life I am going to get excited, I am going to rejoice, I may even have a breakaway down 8Th Ave!

Psalm 7:17
I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness and will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High.

Psalm 9:1
I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonders

Psalm 18:49
Therefore I will praise you among the nations, O LORD; I will sing praises to your name.

Not one time did we hear David say, "unless people are looking and think I'm crazy"
Hello?! David danced NAKED!
Oh, but forgive me, that was in the bible and those times are over. NO! Come on!
Get up! Praise him for the things that he has done!
I'm not saying go dance in the streets naked, but sometimes, when the Lord does something great, you just need to make a little noise praising Him!

Last week God did something for a friend of mine that completely blew my mind!
He gave her the desires of her heart, she had been praying for so long, friends were praying with her, and after all the praying HE DID IT!
And the amazing thing is, He didn't just answer the prayer, He made sure there was no way anyone could doubt His work!!
I'm still in awe!
If that's not something to get excited about then what is??

God has started a fire in me and I am not going to put it out because of fear.
I'm praying right now, that the Lord would begin to stir things in YOU and that it would be so strong that you wouldn't be able to contain it!

Hebrews 12:26-29 (New International Version)
At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, "Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens." The words "once more" indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain.
Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our "God is a consuming fire."

Thursday, April 15, 2010

POW! Power of Worship

About a year and a half ago a friend and I began talking about doing a prophetic worship night and we were hoping our church would do a corporate one, but due to a location issue that was not possible at the present. After time and a lot of talking, we decided that we wanted to start it now. Talking to other people we found that we were not the only ones who had been longing for a prophetic worship night!
So, we started a weekly prophetic worship and prayer night in my home and gave it a name, POW! Power Of Worship

I read this in an Ezine about prophetic worship. -"Prophetic is nothing more than flowing with divinely inspired revelation from heaven. A dependency on the Lord is created in prophetic worship because it leans on the Holy Spirit to guide the worship time, rather than a planned operation during the worship time. Tapping into God is nothing more than taking the time to hear God's voice, hear the melodies from heaven, and allow the Holy Spirit to flow within us."

I love that!
If we can listen closely to the Lord speaking, if we can wait for Him to lead us, how much more will we be walking in His fullness?

This new thing has been SO exciting! Every week God has been moving powerfully! At first we had a few nights that a lot of people showed up, that was awesome, but the last few weeks have been minimal, kinda like God was bringing specific people who needed to be ministered to!

When we first started one of our friend's sister, who lives in D.C., was asking us about it and she got really excited! She asked if we would be willing to go to D.C. and do a night of prophetic worship and prayer for them, of course we were willing!

Last weekend was the weekend! We took a team up there and it was amazing! Just to see people moved, encouraged, ministered to in ways they were not expecting! Not only that, but God really moved in our team's lives! We all felt that God took us to a new level in ministry! Even the next morning, as we served on our worship team, we felt like there was a newness!

We have been feeling like God is going to take us on the road, that we'll be travelling to different churches, doing the same thing. When we were done in D.C., one of the guys came up to us and said that he was on the worship team at his church and that they would love to have us come and do this for them! AAaahh! Wow, God is amazing!!

It's very exciting to hear the Lord speak things to you and then see them being fulfilled right before your eyes!
I am so thankful, so grateful, that the Lord would let me be a part of something so wonderful, and I am so excited to see what will happen next! :)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Status Gain

Status...what is the importance of it?

I see that having a higher status, obviously, helps open doors and you are able to do more. I understand that you can gain status by your hard work and completely deserve it, but there certain people who try to gain status on their own, by trying to befriend the "right" people....STATUS GAINERS.

Now, don't get me wrong, I believe you can make connections and meet people and I believe God opens doors for you through those connections. But what I'm talking about are people who will use your friendship to get themselves to that next level.

I have learned (the hard way) that status is more of a priority to some people, than friendship. I have witnessed it many times and have at times, even been the "friend" that gets used as a step stool to the next level.

I really do know, and completely understand, that most of the time I am of no importance in the world of "big people". I came from small, we never had much and so I don't freak out because I don't have much. But I still have big dreams for myself and I believe those dreams will be lived out someday. So I'm okay with being a "little person", cause I'm not concerned with who I know and what I can get out of that person. I'm concerned with the people around me "little or big" and what I can do for them, give to them, pray for them or what I can speak into their lives, without expecting anything from them in return!

I have become aware of certain people who play this game and I refuse to play along anymore.
If you're always concerning yourself with getting to the next step and making it to the top and if you don't give anything to the friends around you, won't you just be lonely all by yourself up there??

Friday, February 12, 2010

Put an end to Gossip

I've been thinking about something alot lately, GOSSIP.
Just that word alone makes me sick to my stomach!

I think all over the world people experience gossip, either they are a part of the problem or worse, they're the subject.
Now, I'm not saying I've never gossiped before, I have and I'm not proud of those moments, and I can add, gossip is SOoo tempting, you start to hear something about someone and you just HAVE to hear more and then tell someone else, but that is the very instance that you should say, you know what, it stops here.

One thing that really bothers me are people who just live on gossip and sadly enough some of those people are right there next to you in church, maybe even your "friend", but you know what, if they're talking about other people, they're talking about you too, no matter how close you are.

I've had moments where someone wanted to tell something SO bad, but was told they could ABSOLUTELY NOT say a word, so they told the story without naming names, can I tell you something, THAT IS STILL GOSSIP!!
Not only is that completely unfair to the person you're talking about but it's unfair to the person you're telling it to, now that person is going to be thinking about that THING that they have no idea who it's about!

I wish I could say that some of these people who gossip are as young as me or younger but they're not, and I thought you grow out of the urge to gossip!

I found the following in an article online..."We live in a social society where we share in each other’s lives. We are also curious people, always desiring to be “in the know. Yet, gossip is not helpful. Gossip actually serves to break the trust of the people around you."

Spreading rumors only hurts others and destroys our credibility. Who is going to trust us with anything when they think we’ll tell everyone else?
I know some people are KNOWN for being the gossip, and those people don't get certain information for that very reason.

The Bible has a lot of important statements regarding gossip and clearly tells us to do more than discuss other people’s lives.

Leviticus 19:16 – “Do not go about spreading slander among your people. Do not do anything that endangers your neighbor’s life. I am the Lord.” (NIV)

Gossip also creates disunity in the church, if we are not unified then there is more room for Satan to attack us.

Proverbs 11:13 – “A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret.” (NIV)

Gossip is also a way we judge others, which really isn’t our job. God is in charge of judging people, not us. Gossip really only ends up creating greed, hate, envy, murder.

Matthew 7:1 – “Do not judge, or you too will be judged.” (NIV)

Romans 1:29 – “They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips.” (NIV)

Knowing that this is going on between Christians really hurts me, maybe it's not about me, but are we not supposed to be a spiritual family?

If you want to avoid gossip, focus on creating helpful and encouraging statements. Let the gossip end with you and always remember, if you don’t want people to gossip about you, then don’t participate in gossip yourself.
Let's try to put an end to Gossip, and those in the church, we're spiritual family, let's come together in unity!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

New Year, new dreams!

This year the Lord is doing new things and I am so excited to see them!
I have been doing a prophetic worship and prayer night at my house and seeing the things that God is doing through it is amazing! Not just seeing the spirit move but seeing the actual change in people's lives instantly!
People are walking away from this changed, I'm seeing them walk in the fullness of the purpose that God has called them!

For me, I have had a heart and a gift for prophetic worship for a long time. It's even been spoken over me several times. I have looked forward to the day that I could do prophetic worship regularly and it's finally happening....not to mention, SO long overdue.

I am excited to see where God takes me with this and I'm extremely excited to see what new things God does in other people!

Bring it on Lord!