Friday, April 8, 2011

A New Season of Love

I was in the middle of doing a painting for a friend with my ipod on shuffle and the song "Arms Wide Open" came on and I put it on repeat for the duration of the painting. Towards the end I began to think about love, the way WE love, the way God loves. Is it the same, do we come close to loving like HE does? I know a lot of us strive to love like He does, but are we successful?

We all want to love like He does but, what if you then throw in some things that push some of our buttons? Like, politics, sexuality...can we love in spite of a persons viewpoint or lifestyle?

I know, I know, I'm talking about something here that is probably a touchy subject for some people. But did God say to love those who are unlovable except for those who are in sin or those who you completely disagree with? Um, I believe He meant for us to love them all. Oh, I get it, we can love them from a distance right? Or we can love them but still talk bad about them or look at them in disgust, right?
Am I the only one who sees something wrong with that picture?

"You have heard that it was said, "Love your neighbor and hate your enemy."
But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you" ~Matthew 5:43-44

Okay, but that was a looooong time ago and things have changed in the world! Well, honestly things haven't changed ALL that much. Sin is sin. That has never changed.
Jesus loved us all so much that he gave is very life. But He was Jesus. Right.

Jesus is a great example. Maybe we should take off the WWJD bracelets and actually THINK about what that even means. What would Jesus do? Who would HE love?

I don't want to hide behind the title "christian" and say, I can't be around them. I want to be real, be transparent. I don't want to try to pretend that my life is perfect, cause seriously, no matter how hard we try we will never, ever be perfect.

When I was done painting, I had the thought...red has always kinda been the color of love, and then I was looking at all the paintings I've done recently, I have used a lot of purple. I heard something like, "purple is the new color of love".
When I thought about what that meant I got a little understanding. God wants to change the color of love, He wants us to love in newer ways, even maybe change our mindsets of what LOVE actually looks like.

So...it's a new season for love. Hmmmm...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

The end of an era

NYC - Mindrelic Timelapse from Mindrelic on Vimeo.


My friend posted this video on Facebook, as I watched it, feelings bubbled up that I didn't expect...

My husband and I have lived in NYC for close to 7 years now. When we came here it was with mixed emotions of sadness and excitement. Sadness, because we were leaving family and moving from Texas, where we lived our whole lives. The feeling of not knowing what was going to happen and if we would be okay was scary, to say the least. Excitement, because we were finally going to prosper, finally be paid more and in such an amazing city, there was no telling what wonderful things we would experience!

New York City did not disappoint! I have done so many things I never knew I would do, I've met amazing people, and made friends that I never imagined I could have.
Every single thing we saw or heard about NYC was true! One thing I've learned, NYC never has to pretend to be more than it is...it just is...everything!

One of my favorite shows to watch is Sex and the city, minus all the innappropiate content, it talks about NYC like it really is. Also, the way Carrie talks about NY, like, she's in love with the city. I feel the same way...from the first moment I came out of the subway and stepped into Times Square, I FELL IN LOVE!
I found this quote and it perfectly describes my time here...

“One belongs to New York instantly, one belongs to it as much in five minutes as in five years”
-Thomas Wolfe

So true, I belonged instantly.

I love how Carrie talks about the city like it's a love affair, it is! But like any relationship, there are times that, even though you love it, you don't always like it. Here's another great quote...

“That's another reason I love New York. Just like that, it can go from bad to cute.”
-Carrie Bradshaw


We've had some rough times in the past 7 years, but that's part of living here, you tough it out and you end up coming out of it all a stronger person. Maybe that's what I needed, to learn independence and stength in ways I never felt before.
Well, NYC made me grow up fast, that's for sure!

Now with 3 kids it's gotten harder to keep our heads above the water, not financially but socially. You have to try that much harder to have a life outside of home, even just to date your spouse. Sometimes it even begins to get lonely and monotonous.

"Despite the fact that there are over eight million people on the island of Manhattan, there are times you still feel shipwrecked and alone." Carrie Bradshaw

The thought of moving from here saddens me greatly but I know it's what is best for our family right now. Maybe after my kids have had the chance to play outside, climb trees, ride their bikes around the neighborhood...maybe when they're older, we'll move back to my city and we'll begin that love affair all over again!

Until then, I'll hold onto my memories and my love.